Tiny Tripper

I’ve been drawing parallels between my recent activities.  Painting portaits and flying Helicopters.  What I need: Observation skills, lots of attention, firm hands, patience, concentration, calmness and enthusiasm.  Passion. Passion.  It  takes time. 

I’ve been drawing parallels between my recent activities. 

Painting portaits and flying Helicopters. 

What I need: Observation skills, lots of attention, firm hands, patience, concentration, calmness and enthusiasm. 

Passion. Passion. 

It  takes time. 

Never ending search for inspiration. #paris.

Never ending search for inspiration.
#paris.

This afternoon I laid on my couch and watched the sky slowly get darker. And I thought about you. I thought about the phases of your disease and how it hurts both of us and everyone around. I took so long to realize and to accept your difficulties. I thought about the ups and downs. And specially the moments in between, when I can notice in your eyes that something is being transformed inside of you. This moments when you are about to become someone else. I don’t think you are dumb. I watched you so closely and carefully all my life. I don’t think I ever got even half way as close to another human being, and yet I feel like I hardly know you. I can’t understand. I have no clue.  I wanted you to be happy. That’s all I ever wanted. Everyday.  Nothing hurts more than the pain of someone you love.  I hope someday I can do more for you, maybe help in a less aggressive way. But for now, let me be. I’m quite alright hiding today because I can’t pretend this is ok. 

This afternoon I laid on my couch and watched the sky slowly get darker. And I thought about you. I thought about the phases of your disease and how it hurts both of us and everyone around. I took so long to realize and to accept your difficulties. I thought about the ups and downs. And specially the moments in between, when I can notice in your eyes that something is being transformed inside of you. This moments when you are about to become someone else. I don’t think you are dumb. I watched you so closely and carefully all my life. I don’t think I ever got even half way as close to another human being, and yet I feel like I hardly know you. I can’t understand. I have no clue.  I wanted you to be happy. That’s all I ever wanted. Everyday.  Nothing hurts more than the pain of someone you love.  I hope someday I can do more for you, maybe help in a less aggressive way. But for now, let me be. I’m quite alright hiding today because I can’t pretend this is ok. 

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Martnalia

—Cabide

A friend of mine is taking existentialism classes and he asked my opinion about it. First thing I said was: Quit. But he wanted my opinion about the meaning of life and not rather if he should take the class… That is a lot more complicated.  I answer that we shouldn’t give so much importance to our life and doesn’t matter what we do. That answer does not express my beliefs, but in a certain way it works. The more we understand that we are nothing, the easier it gets to see the big picture. The less important we feel, the more interest we give to what happened before us. The more knowledge in history we have, the less probability of us repeating others mistakes from the past.  Its like a zoom in or out in google maps. Having the focus on the blue dot representing you is good sometimes but if you don’t ever zoom out and see how little that is in relation to the rest of the map you’ll be completely lost. Looking at the hole map you can choose better your path and understand your location on it. I’ve met some people that are always seeking success and greatness but only looking at themselves to get there. They never get nowhere because they only can see the blue dot and not the map. In the end of the day their biggest worries is what their going to wear in that party or write in their Facebook status (as if it was a big deal). While If you are curious about other people, societies, histories, politics (…) you will inevitably do the right moves. When one is aware of the other one makes decisions considering the other. So, a good way to end up doing things that matters is from starting to believe it doesn’t matter that much. The good news is that if you zoom out of yourself not only you look little but your problems too, until you can’t even see them anymore. If you don’t give yourself too much importance it is easier to make audacious decisions, based on what you really want, taking risks and not being afraid of judgments. Maybe then you’ll start living a lot more.  pic: my tiny family in the immense desert of Atacama, Chile.  ps: Só sei que nada sei. 

A friend of mine is taking existentialism classes and he asked my opinion about it. First thing I said was: Quit. But he wanted my opinion about the meaning of life and not rather if he should take the class… That is a lot more complicated. 

I answer that we shouldn’t give so much importance to our life and doesn’t matter what we do. That answer does not express my beliefs, but in a certain way it works. The more we understand that we are nothing, the easier it gets to see the big picture. The less important we feel, the more interest we give to what happened before us. The more knowledge in history we have, the less probability of us repeating others mistakes from the past.  Its like a zoom in or out in google maps. Having the focus on the blue dot representing you is good sometimes but if you don’t ever zoom out and see how little that is in relation to the rest of the map you’ll be completely lost. Looking at the hole map you can choose better your path and understand your location on it. I’ve met some people that are always seeking success and greatness but only looking at themselves to get there. They never get nowhere because they only can see the blue dot and not the map. In the end of the day their biggest worries is what their going to wear in that party or write in their Facebook status (as if it was a big deal). While If you are curious about other people, societies, histories, politics (…) you will inevitably do the right moves. When one is aware of the other one makes decisions considering the other. So, a good way to end up doing things that matters is from starting to believe it doesn’t matter that much. The good news is that if you zoom out of yourself not only you look little but your problems too, until you can’t even see them anymore. If you don’t give yourself too much importance it is easier to make audacious decisions, based on what you really want, taking risks and not being afraid of judgments. Maybe then you’ll start living a lot more. 

pic: my tiny family in the immense desert of Atacama, Chile. 

ps: Só sei que nada sei.